Weird thoughts must be shared

So I started my day with my school work today. Having completed that, I took out my laptop and cleaned it again. I wonder how people go without cleaning their cars for months. Don't they love their asset? Anyway. Either they are careless or I am too meticulous and careful. I am not careful about myself or my health. But when it comes to my things. I am careful to a fault. Now a days when I go all decked up to my school, my colleagues and my students ask me " Where did you get this earring from? Where did you get this Dupatta from? '' They all think that I have purchased them all. But the truth is most of my earrings collection dates back to 2007. I obviously made an effort to increase my collection after that but  I did not purchase a single pair from MP. All my dupattas too come from a similar time zone. Dupattas used to come free during that time. But since I am not carrying my bunch from my hometown and I incidentally left my white Dupatta at my cousin's, I had to buy two Dupattas from Chhatarpur. A sheer waste of money. Not just that, one of  my colleagues asked me last Monday [ Sarees are compulsory on Mondays in our school ,by the way] " you never repeat your sarees, how many did you buy? ''. Well, well- I am a Bengali and my mother is always wearing sarees. So I hardly buy. My mother has a huge collection and when she wants to buy, she does that from her own savings. I hand her over a certain amount at the beginning of every month and she does what she has to do with that money. I do not poke my nose in her business. And she never asks me what I do with my salary because she knows how much I value money and how i have been running our household expenses for the past two years. And of course- she trusts me with the entire business. I am good with such stuffs. The only thing I am not good at is cooking which I have told you all many times. It is because I am too lazy to try it out. I lack the zest and it looks like Maths. But where in the History of the human civilization is it written that one has to learn cooking to adult. O wait! I think I forgot that women are supposed to be pro at it, no matter what. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. I remember telling my father the same and sighing. And my father telling me that " you don't need to learn cooking because you are a woman. You need to learn cooking for your survival especially if you want to go places. '' And obviously that made more sense to me than ever. As long as I had my electric kettle, atleast I could do a few stuffs but even that seems like  a distant memory to me now. How am i supposed to start all over again?! It is hilariously pathetic. I shall never forgive God for making such rules for the basic survival of humans. I wish i could directly prey and eat. A lizard or a tiger or a lion has more advantages here. They don't have to cook or know the basic rules about cooking. They prey, eat, live, mate, sleep and are happy. They have no worries about the societal rules or other such creatures of their own species. They don't have to think and what a bliss is that? They don't have to get good grades. They don't have ambitions and they don't think about God or death too deeply. They don't have schools or banks in their system. See an open tiger or a lion, or a lizard or a cockroach and being humans you will only flee in fear. These animals do not even have to work separately to induce fear in humans. We are naturally so scared of them despite all the things that we have as an advanced civilization. Now for example when my mother sees a cockroach she screams and fights till she kills it with her slippers or her broom and it dies. But the cockroach dies as a warrior. It makes my mother scream in fear or anger [ for me it is always fear and running away from there till my senses are well convinced that the cockroach has left the battlefield] till it dies. There is honour in its death. Now we all must have seen how often a lizard catches a cockroach and eats it. This scene also induces fear in us and we as humans don't know what our position is. Should we applaud the lizard for helping us get rid of the cockroach or should we run away because the lizard is still alive with its gigantic eyes and we don't know where it is looking?