The feeling of home

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I am really interested in knowing how everyone is spending their sweet little time at home. Since 2013 I have never been very fortunate to opt for a break like this. This time when I actually have a month's break, I don't know what exactly I can do to make it pass. I have tried cooking, reading, cleaning, bickering with my mom,crying, thinking, watching television, etc etc. And despite all of it, I still have time. The first two weeks had been good. Now all that I can wish for is things to get back to normal so that I can keep myself engaged again. 

Most of my childhood friends are in town  because of COVID-19. Everyone is working from home. However,we rarely get the chance to interact with each other in person. Strangely some of my friends and I have started enjoying our time at home in the sense that we are in the comfort zone and having experienced so much of unnecessary hustle in our lives already, we have a clear picture of what we want, how and why money is important and what should be our next step. Two of my friends are well settled and got married recently. More than ten people in our colony passed away due to the pandemic and isolation has a different definition for us in every respect now.

It has been raining for the past two weeks in Durgapur. O how I have missed it during all these years.  It is not that I did not experience rain during my stay in Durgapur since 2013, but this is the first time since then that I am enjoying it without a worry in the world. My mother has been using a mosquito net for the past one week. This too is a new  development  for we have always preferred a mosquito repellent to a mosquito net all these years. The mosquito net somehow adds to the coziness in the rainy weather and feels like a home within a room at the most vulnerable time in a twenty four hours span. So I am all good with it.

I am planning to relocate to Durgapur for two three years now. Have made up my mind but there are a few limitations definitely. The good thing is that the world has become more progressive and allows you to earn from home. There are plenty of opportunities available in the market. Money, peace, happiness is the best trio. Peace I may never have because I am a serious and deep thinker. Money and happiness is the duo I am looking for. Shall let my readers know how things might work out or if there is a change in opinion.

Fifty more years on this planet (if not less or more) and all my worries,confusions, pain and memories  shall decay along with my body. The idea of God has a grip over me like never before and I can't wait to experience it .





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