learning and growing

There has been no single day in this week when i did not think of writing on my blog. But the schedule has been busy. Even today throughout the morning I was busy correcting papers, writing marks, packing my bags and then i listened to some good songs before finally coming to this part of the day. The previous week I went with my colleagues to a new place near Dak Khana. Earlier Hanuman tauriya was my favourite landscape here in Chhatarpur but since the day i had visited this new place, my favourite landscape has changed. Basically it is a small lake and is perfect if one goes alone. The beauty of the place was so perfect with the birds, the water body and the peace and since it was all dark by the time we reached that place, it looked lovlier. The peace of the place further guaranteed me that my decisions about people in my life had been correct so far and that even if sometimes we do miss a person, it is better to not have them back. And about things, well then, let me share a few i...

It is a Saturday night and well I am blogging now. I did not do much work today because I well deserved a break. I listened to songs and talked with a few friends over the phone. It feels so wonderful to talk with them. One friend was so angry on me because I did not talk with him for such a long time. But I did all that i could within my powers to make it up to him. Did I ever tell you people that my friends are very important to me in my life. I don't have many. I just have a few of them but I can trust on them with my eyes closed. There is nothing on earth that they don't know about me. And i too know everything about them. Back in my school days whenever we used to have fights, we had strange ways of getting things fixed and not a single thing has changed even today. We can go to any lengths for the sake of friendship that we share. I remember telling a classmate during my university days that '' Love is okay. But friendship is more important. '' I have mal...

Today is 17th April and I am in good spirits. I get excited on the birthdays of my friends. So this day is actually one such day. Happy Birthday Souvik. I think I can rightly say now that we are getting old together. And i don't know what the future holds for us but I shall treasure you as a good friend throughout. You are a good person. Family's best wishes are always with you. Now coming back to regular life. Well today was a national holiday but despite that we had to go to school for some work. Had to stay there for around five hours. And then returned back. A lot of work was done in those five hours. So it was not a waste of time. And i keep reminding myself - put one foot in front of the other and get through the day. That is it. Rest is not in your hands. I learned from a message yesterday that we should not take things personally. Why? Because nobody ever does anything because of you. Whatever they do is ultimately a projection of their outer and inner reality. I think...

Today is Bengali New Year and I am terribly upset, though I tried putting up a happy face throughout. The days are not passing quickly. I  am restless. And there is of course some workload.  In a way this workload keeps me busy. Yet I try to find my self time. For the past three days my self time has been my blog. But it does not become possible always. I have stopped communicating with even the few I used to communicate with before, It is just my mother and I. And there is no subject under Earth that she does not discuss with me. I just nod because I am physically and mentally exhausted all the time now a days. A month and a half back I even decided to leave Chhatarpur once and for all and my decision was final. I got a job offer too. Two job offers, if you ask. My mother made me understand and helped me calm down. Yes , she was the one to calm me down this time. But anyway I am counting days. To end this particular phase. It is tiring. It is lonely. It is exhausting. But q...

So I started my day with my school work today. Having completed that, I took out my laptop and cleaned it again. I wonder how people go without cleaning their cars for months. Don't they love their asset? Anyway. Either they are careless or I am too meticulous and careful. I am not careful about myself or my health. But when it comes to my things. I am careful to a fault. Now a days when I go all decked up to my school, my colleagues and my students ask me " Where did you get this earring from? Where did you get this Dupatta from? '' They all think that I have purchased them all. But the truth is most of my earrings collection dates back to 2007. I obviously made an effort to increase my collection after that but  I did not purchase a single pair from MP. All my dupattas too come from a similar time zone. Dupattas used to come free during that time. But since I am not carrying my bunch from my hometown and I incidentally left my white Dupatta at my cousin's, I had...

One year back on 13th of April, i joined my current work place. One year since then and I survived. I am happy that i could keep up with my writing here despite all the ups and downs. I am happy that I could share with my readers all that I have been through, this past year. This year I started my day with cleaning my laptop. This is not a laptop, this is hard work to me.And hence I need to take care of its health. It is just 10:05 a.m as i write, and more things are yet to happen. I have my day planned. All things are to happen inside my room in this one corner where I sit with my laptop. Whether its adding more material to my website, or reading new books or making question papers or writing lesson plans. The temperature here in Madhya Pradesh has taken a troll on my mother and me already and we get more jealous when we hear that it rained in West Bengal. That the Kalbaisakhi in West Bengal has poured relief to the people there and all those flashy headlines. I feel like a character...

I started with my new website yesterday. It is just an experiment and let's see how it turns out. I shall soon provide the link here but right now I am busy making it grow. I am soon to start with reading a new book. And since I have downloaded quite a few of them I am yet to decide which one. I still did not finish ' Kafka 0n the shore' by the way. It was not boredom. It was me getting involved in some other useful activities. Sometimes I wonder that there is so much to learn in this world. So much to improve on.  Sometimes the journey does become lonely and you only wish that there was a bestfriend. The Watson and Sherlock friendship, or the Dean and Sam unity or the Richard and Peralta combo or the Meredith-Yang partnership. But in real world things are quite different. I am blessed to have some good friends in my life. But as we say it in Bengali, " moner manush " . That moner manush is not there. Neither my mother, nor my boyfriend is that person for me. All...

On the 31st of March 2019, our school organised a day and night camp within the school premises. All the students and teachers were informed and promised beforehand that the day is going to be filled with fun activities. Despite all the promises i did not feel like going to my work place on a Sunday. But duty calls! ; who can avoid them? I could not get enough sleep the previous night overthinking about how 31st is going to be like. The ringing of the alarm bell just stirred me to reality on the morn of 31st. I dragged my tired body to the restroom and got ready soon after. At around 7.30 a.m i got out of my house and walked towards the bus stand. I was texting one of my friends about how irritated I was to get up so early on a Sunday morning. Soon thereafter three of my colleagues stopped by. They were inside a car and asked me to get in. It was the first good thing that happened. It kind of gave me hope that the rest of the day might turn out good. We reached school and we saw Princ...