Pleasant and unpleasant thoughts

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So finally i am living one of those rare occasions where i am writing my blog with a cup of coffee,in my room and with absolute silence.It is almost like a dream come true for me because a combination of all these do not usually come to greet me.On Christmas i went to our school church and my post will be about this-almost.So my friends and i walked towards our school church crossing our school gates on our way.I was not the only x-student but the teachers who saw us just recognized me.I met juniors who were shy enough to encounter their 'kamalika di',for i heard them call me,some girls,juniors again smiled and the most touching part was that even the school guards recognized me.This is when you truly feel special- that even after three years they remember you,they smile when they see you,they talk with you and sometimes they don't but they always recognize you.Now the annoying part.There are people who think that every slight action on the part of another person is meant for them.How utterly hollow their life must be?!For example,they feel that their conversations matter so much,that one is bound to be jealous when one sees them talking with others.This is hilarious i know but do you know where it becomes annoying when they fail to realize that their very actions lead others to hate them.Engaged as they are with themselves,they fail to realize what is exactly happening.Talk as much as you want,just don't think you are bothering the other by ignoring the other.Maybe that person has got far better things to think about than just paying attention to absolutely untrue Christmas facts.Disgusting and then people question me how and why i don't like people so easily or have grudges regarding most?Not just that some people just assume that because i myself am a 'nerd',i will go well with the other 'nerds' as well.Seriously,the first consideration to me is always about the kind of person one is and the best way one can know about is by pretending that one is dumb.I pretend to be one to see the extent of cleverness the other person will go to.It just helps one learn the art of smiling silently.It is almost like X thinking-'i am so clever that this dumbo did not get my clever word play' and Y is like 'Stay quiet and watch the next movement'.This is not just about my hometown but also Kolkata.Rather Kolkata helps me improve.At the end of all this i suddenly feel the need of going back to my bed cause the fever is not down yet and the so called syllabus of my coming exam remains untouched.

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