Cause i don't regret

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This is my second post today and what prompts me to write this is a recent post that i just read,written by a teacher I admired.It has got nothing to do with his post content,but suddenly i realized that this year,one of my friends(better said as friend turned stranger),and this teacher i am talking about went through dome serious health problems to which i was completely aware but did not ask any of them about it.Obviously i have perhaps turned a noone in their lives for this very reason and honestly i have no complaints against that but only if they could just take a moment and think of what wrongs they did that caused my not so desirable behaviour.I am not being sentimental,though i may sound like one.I have already past that age where trusting people can effect the normal schedule,and the innumerable people i talk about in my writings,people who annoy me to the brink are those people who just play a role in making me an experienced human.I know now whom to be with and whom to avoid and some i stay with because of my present situational demands and i have guts to say that on their faces.Not to change the course of the topic,these people who may regard me as a emotionless person,are not wrong to do so.But i wish they knew they played small parts in making me one,not that i regret being what i am today and i don't repent of not asking these people about their health or life.I may make more mistakes in my life but that has become so much fun indeed and each time i realize about those mistakes,i am sure to write a new post.Some people like for example my cousin,aunt-just wanted to know of why do i keep myself distant from most.I just said them,i need to and i have learned it well so as not to forget my real purpose.Friends are just distant from me,because i choose to maintain that.I admire some but that does not mean that i treat them as friends though one in my present class had always helped me fight difficult situations and in a year's time she may well settle in abroad with her objectives.But the rest,they are probably like me or a much much modified version of what i am and knows how to pursue things.Souvik,if you are reading this remember,you add a different meaning to my life and you are the most wonderful person that could have happened to me.I am glad and fortunate and hence you and my family is exactly what i count in my life.And the rest,especially the two i am talking about,i am just more that glad to meet you and trust me when i say this-you people have taught me something very significant and hence helped me construct a happy new chapter and this shall continue,i promise...

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