learning and growing

 Teenagers ( 16, 17 year olds ) booze openly and consider it normal. It is the new cool of the Gen Z. Being fearless is something. Knowing no boundaries at all is something else. I am definitely growing old or I am perhaps at odds with new trends. When I was in class three, I used to bring flowers for my teachers and so did my friends. We all had this competition as kids, though none of us ever agreed to it. I set my  mind to become a teacher in class three because I had this weird idea in my mind that my students will bring me flowers everyday just like I did it for my teachers. Now I am a teacher. I have real notebooks in place of newspapers that acted like my notebooks when I played ' teacher, teacher ' as a child. I have real students who upload pictures on Instagram and Facebook like professionals, irrespective of the age. And forget about the flower part. It is a matter of the bygone days. Just a dream. Not that I never received flowers from my students but things are ve...

Getting oneself some free time is quite a job. And now that I have finally managed to steal sometime after a week's hard work, I am back to writing. A lot had happened this week. Classes, clashes, PTMs, PPT(s),conferences, discussions, corrections, court and convincing. Did not I already tell you all before, that my life keeps me busy ?! With the ways things are heading in directions I am not very fond of, I might have to compromise on a few things that I hold close to my heart. Challenging times but what perplexes me more is the  the normal behaviour of people around. They  probably assume I am an Alpha female and I can manage it all...Who will tell them that at the end of the day I am just a human being with the normal capacity of emotional strength that a normal human has ?! Also, I am young. Just saying. Since I am in my hometown for a few days, I have the privilege of shutting myself up in my room and working on myself...talking in terms of healing of course. Those are th...

 There was a time when I was a prolific writer. I used to post atleast four write ups in a month because I had a target to reach. But soon after I reached the target, things started changing in and around me. Life kept me busy. In the process I lost so many things. On 5th of September '20, I lost my grandfather whom I dearly addressed as ' dada'. It shook my world. I am in the process of healing. Damn! It is so painful. Now it is just my mother and me in the family. A whole set of new responsibilites have come on my shoulders. Testing times indeed. But it has never been otherwise. I always had one challenge or the other to cope with. It has always added up to the adventurous spirit in my life. It has done me more. It has weathered me in ways I can't possibly express. There is a subdued longingness for positive people and situations. There is a hanging gray cloud which I can feel but can't show to anyone. What is more strange is the way I always manage to smile despi...

When Mr. Higgins did not choose Eliza , when Elizabeth Bennet frowned at Darcy, when Heathcliff hurt Catherine ,when Alison left Jimmy Porter....one thing defined them all...their ability to not bow down in front of their soft feelings. Their arrogance gave shape to their pride. But i often sit back and wonder, how would things be, if they gave in to the emotional play... ? Tough is the first word of course. But was it not already tough for them to subdue what rightfully came from what one would call a heart? Their decisions, their choices...shaped their lives and the world of Literature...There were consequences that made readers ruminate over what is right and wrong, question the word helplessness in a new way...That brings me to what i feel very often. I feel helpless and i can't define it . I cannot give it a shape. I can't complain either. Most people tend to take the normal course in their lives...Most people tend to believe and live for the basics. Naturally the best of...

I almost gave up writing. If i say due to the lack of the availability of time, I know i will be lying. Amidst the pandemic, i did have some free time but instead i spent it on Netflix and reading books. I engaged myself in a little research of my own. However, i had other things suddenly come on my way and i got busier. Even now when i write this i have plenty of official work pending. That's the gist of it basically. I wanted to grow and be more productive one year back. And today i simply have too much of work and I have learned so many important things. Goes without saying that human nature is always on the top of my list. It never fails to amaze me...sometimes my own temperament takes me by surprise. If there is any word that  has shaped up my life in the past one year is the word ' improvise'. I had faced challenges in ways i can't explain...whether morally, or emotionally or physically. I have never said no to any work and that has drained energy from every aspe...

It will be a lie if I say that I did not wait for this year to end. Hogwarts kept me busy throughout with this and that and whenever I got some free time, I either read a book, decorated my apartment or studied more to improve myself as a professional. There were days when I worked till 1 at night inside the school. There were days when I wrote, recorded, taught people to dance, taught class 10 chapters beyond the syllabus, made them bookmarks and cooked all by myself- and I did it altogether. Such that the days passed very quickly and I did not even understand. Waking up at 7 in the morning knowing that the day won't end soon, often made my journey from my bed to the bathroom very difficult. But I am through all of it for this year and that includes me getting saline once after Diwali and finishing a two months newsletter in 2 hours and meeting the deadline. Hogwarts so far has been a place from where I learned every moment. Being a mentor to my class 9 mentees , that too all boy...

And i get back to what i dearly missed for the past two months odd. Life kept me pretty busy. There has been too much of learning at the professional level and I am still getting used to the fact that I am no more a beginner in this field and though young, the professional environment has accepted me like never before. I am very happy to announce that my school has won the Green school of the year award [ north ] and also the best infrastructure [ jury choice ] award at the Global education Awards 2019. It has been ranked as the No.1 co-ed boarding school in Rajasthan for 6 consecutive years now and has achieved 14th rank in all over India among the co-ed boarding schools of the country by ISRA. The award ceremony will be held on 28th and 29th September in Gurgaon. At present the school is busy with the academic exchange program with Canford school, UK as well as ongoing excursions. Now that i am done with praise for my school , i shall come back to some regular talks. It too might in...