learning and growing

 1)People are confused. Knowledge and confidence is everything.  2) Money is very important.  3) Knowing how to cook is important. Surviving on, no matter what you cook, is more important. 4) Helping people and showing kindness, helps you with a good sleep at night. 5) People will judge you even when you are doing  your best. Stop thinking about them. 6) Living alone and independently takes a lot of bravery and courage. It's not for everyone. Stepping outside the threshold of your comfort zone ,comes at a price and rewards you with wisdom and strength. 7) Environmental changes are real. It's high time we pay attention to it. 8) Life is uncertain. Lets not waste too much time thinking about how and where did we go wrong. Let's face it. Accept it. 9) Stop comparing your first chapter with someone's tenth chapter. You and them did not have the same upbringing. You and them did not have the same resources. Be happy with what you are doing and achieving. Be proud and cont...

One of my colleagues wants me to write a blog on my affairs/love life. There are surely many more interesting things under the sun to write about. But why shy away from one such topic. If you ask me, I won't term any of the relationships that I ever had as an affair. The moment we say affair, I believe we give it a not so likeable face. I would say that I have had the opportunity to get closely connected to many people, intellectually over time. It had always been a matter of mind and never a matter of the heart. Some were short term, some were long term, some stretched over a very,very short period. I do not regret any of it. It has been a way of God, I believe, to help me understand the different facets of love. The different ways it can come to you. The different ways you can feel it. Society tends to shape and define love in many ways. They try to define it on the basis of gender,age,culture,colour,caste,religion,language, marriage,to name a few. The moment we try to succumb ou...

 Teenagers ( 16, 17 year olds ) booze openly and consider it normal. It is the new cool of the Gen Z. Being fearless is something. Knowing no boundaries at all is something else. I am definitely growing old or I am perhaps at odds with new trends. When I was in class three, I used to bring flowers for my teachers and so did my friends. We all had this competition as kids, though none of us ever agreed to it. I set my  mind to become a teacher in class three because I had this weird idea in my mind that my students will bring me flowers everyday just like I did it for my teachers. Now I am a teacher. I have real notebooks in place of newspapers that acted like my notebooks when I played ' teacher, teacher ' as a child. I have real students who upload pictures on Instagram and Facebook like professionals, irrespective of the age. And forget about the flower part. It is a matter of the bygone days. Just a dream. Not that I never received flowers from my students but things are ve...

Getting oneself some free time is quite a job. And now that I have finally managed to steal sometime after a week's hard work, I am back to writing. A lot had happened this week. Classes, clashes, PTMs, PPT(s),conferences, discussions, corrections, court and convincing. Did not I already tell you all before, that my life keeps me busy ?! With the ways things are heading in directions I am not very fond of, I might have to compromise on a few things that I hold close to my heart. Challenging times but what perplexes me more is the  the normal behaviour of people around. They  probably assume I am an Alpha female and I can manage it all...Who will tell them that at the end of the day I am just a human being with the normal capacity of emotional strength that a normal human has ?! Also, I am young. Just saying. Since I am in my hometown for a few days, I have the privilege of shutting myself up in my room and working on myself...talking in terms of healing of course. Those are th...

 There was a time when I was a prolific writer. I used to post atleast four write ups in a month because I had a target to reach. But soon after I reached the target, things started changing in and around me. Life kept me busy. In the process I lost so many things. On 5th of September '20, I lost my grandfather whom I dearly addressed as ' dada'. It shook my world. I am in the process of healing. Damn! It is so painful. Now it is just my mother and me in the family. A whole set of new responsibilites have come on my shoulders. Testing times indeed. But it has never been otherwise. I always had one challenge or the other to cope with. It has always added up to the adventurous spirit in my life. It has done me more. It has weathered me in ways I can't possibly express. There is a subdued longingness for positive people and situations. There is a hanging gray cloud which I can feel but can't show to anyone. What is more strange is the way I always manage to smile despi...

When Mr. Higgins did not choose Eliza , when Elizabeth Bennet frowned at Darcy, when Heathcliff hurt Catherine ,when Alison left Jimmy Porter....one thing defined them all...their ability to not bow down in front of their soft feelings. Their arrogance gave shape to their pride. But i often sit back and wonder, how would things be, if they gave in to the emotional play... ? Tough is the first word of course. But was it not already tough for them to subdue what rightfully came from what one would call a heart? Their decisions, their choices...shaped their lives and the world of Literature...There were consequences that made readers ruminate over what is right and wrong, question the word helplessness in a new way...That brings me to what i feel very often. I feel helpless and i can't define it . I cannot give it a shape. I can't complain either. Most people tend to take the normal course in their lives...Most people tend to believe and live for the basics. Naturally the best of...

I almost gave up writing. If i say due to the lack of the availability of time, I know i will be lying. Amidst the pandemic, i did have some free time but instead i spent it on Netflix and reading books. I engaged myself in a little research of my own. However, i had other things suddenly come on my way and i got busier. Even now when i write this i have plenty of official work pending. That's the gist of it basically. I wanted to grow and be more productive one year back. And today i simply have too much of work and I have learned so many important things. Goes without saying that human nature is always on the top of my list. It never fails to amaze me...sometimes my own temperament takes me by surprise. If there is any word that  has shaped up my life in the past one year is the word ' improvise'. I had faced challenges in ways i can't explain...whether morally, or emotionally or physically. I have never said no to any work and that has drained energy from every aspe...