Such confusions!

-
Professor Dumbledore said that our choices define who we are far more than our abilities.This could only carry meaning for people who reflect back on past decisions and choices.Yes,I can relate.I often go back to times when i had to make a choice and which I made just to regret.Obviously I am not talking about all my decisions but at some places I went terribly wrong.Now how do they define me?I still make mistakes which I don't realize untill it is too late.But each one of us make mistakes and that defines us as humans.Some great person also said that people who never made mistakes in their lives will never understand the unimportance of events and this is exactly where I feel proud at myself but that is again juxtaposed with apprehensions of what could have been.I wish the abilities and experienced were counted and given their due importance and that happens only in a roundabout way now a days.Someone told me don't forget that a decision too is a test of our capability and if that is so why do I see capable people around me repenting?I really want to know how do people in our society define ability and a correct decision.You see they are just as much confused as I am for who knows what is correct for him except God.I take a decision and o regret it but that perhaps is actually a good thing in my life.For example my maths tuition teacher always complained about his thankless job but did he ever realize that his teaching earned him his family food and many other necessities.I feel he repents not because he has become a teacher but because he could not become a good teacher.That is where the problem lies.I confess,I wanted an easier way out but my decision probably paved the hard path for me.I know some of my readers are completely lost for I am not mentioning one clear incident in my life to point out what I mean and what I repent.I do understand the unimportance of events and I also realize that I have problems in my decision making at some places and concerning some events but that does not make me an inable person because to regret is also a part of learning and that defines me and my blog.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Kadambari Devi's Suicide note

-
A few days back i finished reading 'Kadambari Devi's Suicide note',by Ranjan Banerjee and though it struck odd notes in many places(my opinion),it definitely falls into the category of the must read books,especially if you want to explore Tagore's world.Most intellectuals or want to be intellectuals, appreciate Tagore for his modern outlook,but appreciating the modern aspects of a character or mind is vastly different from experiencing it first hand,and the process can be painful,like a morbid pleasure,it can be so addictive,that one does not want to come out of it, rather can't come out of it.This is exactly what happened with Kadambari Devi.A dilemma she was in because she was sapiosexual and was in love with her husband's brother,ROBI(Rabindranath Tagore).She was an exceptional talent but failed to realize it not just because of the environment that surrounded her but also because she loved Tagore with all her dreams and not just her life.An exceptionally unc...
Read more

Who says English is easy?

-
Who says English is easy?I honestly did not know how to pronounce Freud-it was confusing,until one day one of my schoolmates corrected me,indirectly and since then I know that I need to pronounce it as FROYED and not FREEEEEUD.Lets take an easy example-COW;a person not knowing the English alphabets may pronounce it as CO,because the W in itself is a two syllabic word(if we consider it's spelling),so people can be mistaken and they can pronounce it as Co and then W but it's real pronunciation is CAUU.Another simple example can be the word MORE.Judged from the spelling,it should sound as MOR-E,with a clear emphasis on E,but in English we don't do that because the E becomes silent.The same goes for the word LATE because we don't pronounce it as LATE-E.Confusion persists in the pronounciation of A as well.It becomes difficult for us to contemplate if we should pronounce A as we normally do,when we follow the English alphabetical chart or should we pronounce it as Aaaaa.So w...
Read more

Ranting is allowed

-
Image
Ten years since 2013. The year when I stepped into my college. A new world, a new culture and a completely new environment with new faces. College felt numb and so did my P. G. Always thought of holidays, felt happier when got them. Three months at a stretch sometimes. Holidays always meant an escape to my hometown, to my family. Now it's my mother and me and the idea of hometown does not excite me anymore. It's just a place where I survive and try to thrive. There is no escape even when there are plenty of options. Think I already know what hell might feel like.  With a deeper understanding of life, universe and humans, my mind has almost given up on the human civilization ( not to forget I don't like the street dogs crying and howling at night and continuing with it for one hour to say the least. Cockroaches and flying cockroaches appearing from almost nowhere). Elders bless us with a long life but they always fail to mention a blessed, carefree long life. Who wants to li...
Read more