learning and growing

In case if you have been wondering if i were that busy, you are right. I was. I still am but my schedule is lighter than before and hence i am writing. A lot has been happening since i arrived in West Bengal. From meeting friends to other stuffs, everything has been a hell of a ride. Most things on my bucket list are done. A few things still remain and hopefully i will tick them off very soon and happily. Mother is out with her friend and i am alone inside my room reading 'Selection Day'' by Aravind Adiga as well as writing my blog. Lately i am getting some weird responses from neighbours regarding my lifestyle. Not that i care but i wonder what makes them think about me so much. I thank you all for investing your time on me. And yes I do not consider my mother as a baggage to all who want to hear it out. She is my responsibility and it is my good luck that i am travelling with her wherever i go. Not to forget that in future too, i shall do that. I shall take her with me t...

Right after 'fani' [cyclone] did not not strike us the way it was expected to yesterday night [ after midnight], i went off to sleep knowing that it is going to be a long day today. I woke up and had an application to fill up and also had to make an important call. I washed my clothes, had my breakfast and I am writing now. Obviously i cleaned my laptop before this. This is the first time that i opened my laptop in Bengal. And trust me i was not sure if i should because i don't have enough time. But since i am free for the next thirty minutes, let me write down a few things. I boarded my train from MP on Tuesday afternoon and landed in Kolkata on Wednesday morning. It was good to be back in my Bengali land and instead of uttering ' bhaiya ' i could actually utter ' dada ' everywhere after a long time and that itself was a matter of joy. Anyway. I booked an uber car as soon as i landed with my mother in Howrah junction and within 45 mins i reached my place. ...

There has been no single day in this week when i did not think of writing on my blog. But the schedule has been busy. Even today throughout the morning I was busy correcting papers, writing marks, packing my bags and then i listened to some good songs before finally coming to this part of the day. The previous week I went with my colleagues to a new place near Dak Khana. Earlier Hanuman tauriya was my favourite landscape here in Chhatarpur but since the day i had visited this new place, my favourite landscape has changed. Basically it is a small lake and is perfect if one goes alone. The beauty of the place was so perfect with the birds, the water body and the peace and since it was all dark by the time we reached that place, it looked lovlier. The peace of the place further guaranteed me that my decisions about people in my life had been correct so far and that even if sometimes we do miss a person, it is better to not have them back. And about things, well then, let me share a few i...

It is a Saturday night and well I am blogging now. I did not do much work today because I well deserved a break. I listened to songs and talked with a few friends over the phone. It feels so wonderful to talk with them. One friend was so angry on me because I did not talk with him for such a long time. But I did all that i could within my powers to make it up to him. Did I ever tell you people that my friends are very important to me in my life. I don't have many. I just have a few of them but I can trust on them with my eyes closed. There is nothing on earth that they don't know about me. And i too know everything about them. Back in my school days whenever we used to have fights, we had strange ways of getting things fixed and not a single thing has changed even today. We can go to any lengths for the sake of friendship that we share. I remember telling a classmate during my university days that '' Love is okay. But friendship is more important. '' I have mal...

Today is 17th April and I am in good spirits. I get excited on the birthdays of my friends. So this day is actually one such day. Happy Birthday Souvik. I think I can rightly say now that we are getting old together. And i don't know what the future holds for us but I shall treasure you as a good friend throughout. You are a good person. Family's best wishes are always with you. Now coming back to regular life. Well today was a national holiday but despite that we had to go to school for some work. Had to stay there for around five hours. And then returned back. A lot of work was done in those five hours. So it was not a waste of time. And i keep reminding myself - put one foot in front of the other and get through the day. That is it. Rest is not in your hands. I learned from a message yesterday that we should not take things personally. Why? Because nobody ever does anything because of you. Whatever they do is ultimately a projection of their outer and inner reality. I think...

Today is Bengali New Year and I am terribly upset, though I tried putting up a happy face throughout. The days are not passing quickly. I  am restless. And there is of course some workload.  In a way this workload keeps me busy. Yet I try to find my self time. For the past three days my self time has been my blog. But it does not become possible always. I have stopped communicating with even the few I used to communicate with before, It is just my mother and I. And there is no subject under Earth that she does not discuss with me. I just nod because I am physically and mentally exhausted all the time now a days. A month and a half back I even decided to leave Chhatarpur once and for all and my decision was final. I got a job offer too. Two job offers, if you ask. My mother made me understand and helped me calm down. Yes , she was the one to calm me down this time. But anyway I am counting days. To end this particular phase. It is tiring. It is lonely. It is exhausting. But q...

So I started my day with my school work today. Having completed that, I took out my laptop and cleaned it again. I wonder how people go without cleaning their cars for months. Don't they love their asset? Anyway. Either they are careless or I am too meticulous and careful. I am not careful about myself or my health. But when it comes to my things. I am careful to a fault. Now a days when I go all decked up to my school, my colleagues and my students ask me " Where did you get this earring from? Where did you get this Dupatta from? '' They all think that I have purchased them all. But the truth is most of my earrings collection dates back to 2007. I obviously made an effort to increase my collection after that but  I did not purchase a single pair from MP. All my dupattas too come from a similar time zone. Dupattas used to come free during that time. But since I am not carrying my bunch from my hometown and I incidentally left my white Dupatta at my cousin's, I had...