The inner change

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Learning and growing has taken a different shape now. I can feel the change in me. I finally realize why CV's ask for experience. Experience changes you both personally and professionally. If i were to describe myself in one word that would be 'reserved'.  I don't talk with many people. Because i don't like all. I talk with some and I like them. It is just that simple. I have always been a nerd if you ask me. I like keeping things to myself and doing things myself. I love my personal space. Now a days i have become more reserved. Professionally it is of course not possible for me to always be the way i really like to be but there too i have seen a change in me. I think the more you learn about things and people, the quieter you become. The more focused you become with your plans. Once my sir told me that ' the more you shall grow up, the more you will realize that the four walls of your room has more to offer .' I do not completely agree but i do get now what he tried to convey. And probably that is why  he is a successful businessman today. Adulting is exhausting but it is the price to be paid for a stable life. For your dreams. Jumping to new things is easier and childish. A year back on this day i promised myself to not touch one of my bad habits, no matter what the circumstance. I did it and i realize i can always do it. And hereby i declare from my hard practice that addiction to both things and people can be stopped. It is a matter of pain, endurance and grit. And also leaving anything, whether a job or a place or a person, need not always mean giving up. I have still so many questions to ask the blank authority. Let's see what unfolds next.

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