Ma keeps contemplating my nature 😊

Summer heat and moving out of state is always a bad combination. Even the AC compartments feel like boiling pans. So was my unplanned sudden short trip to Madhya Pradesh. I normally sleep little, the AC compartment although comfortable made it impossible for me to get some shut eye ,at all. I wonder how do some people manage to stay inside an AC room for a long period at a stretch. Or maybe I am just too grounded. Not just that, the train to MP was delayed by some six hours and on our way back to West Bengal, I fell considerably ill. Sleep rescued me ultimately back at home, you see. I wish I could sleep more. I also wonder if that day is going to come anytime sooner. Now that I am back in my hometown after a long time, it feels a little relaxing. Things aren't the way they used to be earlier as i must have mentioned in my other posts, but it is still home and more home for a regular hostelite. Those same evenings in my roof, the same familiar Durgapur breeze and those forever old streets are always the best part of Spring and Summer in my hometown. My mother knows that her daughter is mad but then she can't quite contemplate as to how i can remain so aloof all the time. Back the previous day she questioned me ' Achha tor eka lagena?' ( Don't you feel lonely?). I told her I never feel lonely. After all how can any human with two eyes, two hands, two legs, and a working mind ever feel lonely. There are literally so many things to do and learn and judge and not learn. There are so, so many situations to contemplate, far too many books to read and so many good series and movies to watch. My mother being obviously more social than I am think of me as a pathetic creature. She can't understand how can a person be so okay without having friends. But you see, I do have friends. And they are just more permanent and more real to me. I have you, mother. You are a good friend but you will never get that. I have some of my school friends who are just as mad as I am and never ask for any explanation for the long gaps that I so often take. I think I am happy this way. Anyway mamon, the huge use that I already make of social media every day, makes me more social than a few I guess. And mamon, you should know that your daughter is way too choosy about friendship. It is a heavy word and ' moner manush ' is a tough phrase. But surprisingly Souvik is the crazy person in my life , well fitting the heavy tough phrase. But mamon, your daughter is normal, your daughter is whimsical and your daughter is not at all what you think a daughter must be, should be. Hopefully you will get to know me more now that a world of adventure is soon going to say " Hello." P.S- I am more than social when it is required