Smirks and Smiles

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I am writing after a long time.I can see a lot of serious changes in my life,right now.I won't say,i have been too busy,but it took me a real good effort to analyze certain traits in my character and of what do i want for myself in the coming times.The more i meet new people and the more i think about the people i have already met,i become proud of my parents and my upbringing.I am so happy that my parents never taught me to get things the easy way.I am happy that they have always asked me to fight in the correct manner,without deliberately hurting someone and to be always proud of what i face as a consequence,whether good or bad.I have seen much failure in my life and they taught me to value it.So another blow won't mean more than a tough challenge to me.By this time i have started valuing my critics.They really mean a lot to me.True that i filter out the unnecessary crap coming out from them,but i also pay attention to what they say,because that in a way helps me overcome the shortcomings in my character.They are not always wrong,i believe.Most people have that urge to show me,that they are far above me(all in professional terms of course),but do they ever ask themselves that why do they feel the need to justify their roles to me?No,because they know it really well that they treat me as their tough competitor.It always gives me some kind of happiness to think that many people consider me to be very innocent.So you see,for instance,even if they know everything and even follow my blog regularly,they pretend they don't because they pretend they don't care.And on my part,i am more like,do whatever you want to,we both know the truth.So if anyone thinks that i am very clever,it is because i want them to think like that.So if you think i am innocent,i can happily deduce that i am good at and in my work.My third year final results have come out and i am finally an English Honours Graduate from the UNIVERSITY OF CALCUTTA.I have ranked second in my college,this third year as well as in the summation of the past three years.I did this WITHOUT a tuition and by staying in a place which was NOT MY HOME.Many of my classmates are not really ready to accept that i am already a winner and way different from them because my struggle was greater than theirs, the past three years but unfortunately that won't change the basic truth that I HAVE PROVED MYSELF and all that matters to me is that i am a winner and a good person at the same time,in my eyes.I have many things to share with my readers but i am just waiting for that opportune moment.Some days back,a kid was asking me about my hobby,so i mentioned him my blog,but he gave me an empty stare.I told him all about it and he asked me if it would be easy for him to read my blog.I told him,that i always write my blog in the friendly English Language,so that most can have an easy access to it.I don't really boast of my vocabulary except for when i am taking my exam.I am really not one of those lunatic characters.To that he smiled.I smiled back.He said 'I will read then'.I nodded saying,'Okay'. 😊

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