Disturbed mind

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I have always made it a point to mention in my previous posts, that thinking is an art and a person without thoughts is like a computer without a keyboard (not the best way to illustrate it though).However too much thinking is injurious both physically and emotionally.What i will confess now,would appear more like a confession from a loser but indeed the past few days,i did not feel like waking up from my sleep.No,i did not want to see myself dead but i had panic attacks right from the time i woke up.I thought too much-about my parents,my career,my goals and what not.And one thought always lead to another and it never stopped.Sadly my efforts to divert my mind from all these things,proved to be just one more way of adding thoughts to the already over burdened mind.I even googled stress free yogas and soon had a wiki wide knowledge about meditation but all in vain.Easy to read but hard to incorporate in ones' schedule.Sleep did not come to me easily but waved a good bye too soon.I found myself in hyperactive mood all this while-doing all the readings and within my limits,household works.But inside i was completely exhausted and i was always asking my mind to 'Shut up'.Yesterday i had a one hour conversation with Souvik and yes,his suggestions helped me get some real good sleep after a long time.But then it was morning and my mind was back to torture me again.I am really hoping this period to wither away soon,so that i can thank life for all the good things that i am blessed with.I have also made it a point to talk less with people who can't think anything beyond themselves (not the truly selfish people because i admire them) and are rather full with negative energy all the time and there are five names in the list.I have also decided to avoid people with hard mentality.Not all can i ignore, for most of them are my neighbours,but i can always make an attempt to ALMOST ignore them.I have also planned to visit my native village within the next one month,to avoid many unavoidable town factors.I am more than eager to kick start my post graduation classes because i think that is one major reason behind my delicate health. Lately i have started questioning the consequences of good deeds and something in me truly convince me that we live in Kalyug.By now i guess most people are well aware about the recent case of Judith D'Souza.I don't know why innocents like her has to suffer because of the national political scenario.And i won't even hesitate to say that the time is not far when the world shall witness the Third World War and sadly the intellectuals are to be blamed for that.Once Lord Krishna said,'Yada Yada Hi Dharmashya Glani Bhavati Bharat,Abhuthanam Dharmashya Tadatatmanang Srijamajham,Paritranayan Sadhunang Binashaya cha Dushcrititam,Dharmasangasthapanarthayo Sambhavi Yuge Yuge'(Where Dharma is exhausted and made vulnerable by Adharma,I,the supreme power present myself in creation,to do the just by helping the innocent and good and by destroying the evil.To root Dharma back again,i recreate and reinforce myself in different time periods).Isn't this high time?

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