Time then and now

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Now that hardly one and a half month is left for my third year to get over,a strange sense of relaxation overwhelms me supported by the fact that a stronger effort will now be required for the coming years.Now that i reflect back,it seems like yesterday when i was all tooth and nails,working hard for my class ten board exams.It seemed the world to me then for little did i know that apart from being a good student,there are always other odds that contribute towards making one a successful student as well.But those days are gone now and i just try to convince myself towards being and moving towards what is required.Because i have become more mature now(which i can rightfully assert)and as Hamlet once said to Horatio that there are more things on heaven and earth that one can think of.Going with the flow is not easy because reality interrupts and bothers but accepting with gratitude what one faces is a necessity and because i have a strong conviction on Karma,i will rather wait,watch,smile and accept.The little girl in my aunt's house often say that 'kichu baje hobena'(nothing bad can happen),and i often wander and smile and what she says and marvel at her hopes.I don't remember if i said the same when i was of her age.Right from the beginning I was pessimistic i guess.Reason that i have hardly any friends in my life-those who are there,may they remain.Times when i have nothing much to do,i spend my time writing my blog and throw out my thoughts here.It helps me somehow.I am glad.

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