Not so simple

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So the process of my shifting from one place to the other started on Friday.With the help of Ratan da i was able to shift two heavy things-my suitcase and bedding.I gave him some money,cause that was necessary.Then came my turn.I had to shift single handedly by books,tool,toiletries and other things from my hostel.The process is not done yet.But doing all this,almost by myself was not easy.But i was happy to take the responsibility.So many things i learned in Kolkata.Right from my first year the phrase 'Survival of the fittest',seemed to echo inside my mind because of so many things that i had to face.I made uncountable mistakes,which i still do,get hurt,feel bad and learn.Obviously,there are things that arise almost everyday,to just piss me off.I wish people could forget the past and live in the present,live happily.And i so wish i could murder names for some never cease to linger.I wonder if people i care for will ever understand my predicaments.Contemplating on what is done,cannot undo them.I am so tired for the past few days,overburdened with thoughts i want to escape,but for some reason i cannot.I feel deeply sad,when my past actions hurt people whom i love.Will things ever come to peace?Why can't we be happy with what we have?Why can't we reciprocate the love we receive from others?Thinking about all this is not simple and so is growing up...

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