Have I been kind to myself?

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Am I perfect? No. Are you? No. Nobody is. We make mistakes. More importantly do we forgive ourselves for those mistakes? I find it difficult. I have not been able to forgive myself for something I did in the past ,something terrible only to realize later, that it was not all that terrible after all. Despite realising it, brooding over it and crying endlessly for doing what I was not very proud of, I haven't been able to completely forgive myself. I am definitely no more that person who made that mistake three years back but I am still not over it. Do I deserve to feel this heavy all the time? No, I suppose but I can't help and I know I am not being kind to myself. I should be though. I am definitely more kind to my health now ( as a teacher, I often miss out on drinking enough water because of continuous classes) but I am definitely more careful than I was towards my health three years back. I try to take small breaks despite the heavy routine. I write whenever possible. I take care of my skin as I had mentioned earlier on my blog. Last to last week I was down with high fever. It was because of my after 5pm showers ( I thought I was taking care of myself after the end of a long day by taking those showers. But I was obviously wrong. Still a work in progress you see and shall always be) and work stress. I recovered. My sore throat took two weeks to recover but I did all that I could to become healthier. Mom helped of course. It's important to be kind to oneself. Kind and forgiving. I wish I could be more of that and not crib over things I can't change or things which the inexperienced me did long back. Before being kind to your family, friends or pets, be kind to yourself. I am still on it and I wish I had someone to guide and tell me how I can be more kind to myself...but since there is no one...I leave it on the universe. 

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