' Professionalism'- As my mother understands it and as i interpret it

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Have often written two posts in a day, but three ?! well this is the first time and since life has forced me to become flexible to changes both good and bad, this new change is so acceptable and even better since I finally have some free time to write and comment on things I like and dislike and also everything in between. So now my mother just passed on a comment today while we were dining. She told me ' you are becoming too professional '. Now why I am writing about this? Because I found this too untrue. I am learning to be professional but becoming too much of a professional isn't true. Usually my emotions don't work too much and sometimes when they do, I am just overwhelmed. But now that I have become more practical, I talk to the point more than I ever did. While analysing her statement I also realized that I have this sense of haste working inside me. I don't know what I am running for or from but again I know why and life appears too short for anything now. Every damn thing is so materialistic and tempting. Every damn thing can easily divert you, drive you as well as give you pleasure. And I am probably driven. My soul is suffering and I know that. But I can't help. To reach my soul, I will have to overreach my goals and then only I will get some food for my ' atma ' and I know exactly how short this life is for all of this. Jealousy, Competition, Lust, Betrayal, Denial, Confusion and Complexity are the major components of our time. Accept and adapt or die and if this has made me more robot like I can't help. I feel emotions deeply and can probably write three pages on it. One reason that I am writing this post now is because my emotion or emotions are prompting me to. But I have stopped myself from doing many things. Let's just say that if i want i can do many things completely unacceptable to the society and trust me the devil has quite arranged everything for me- whether its personal or professional. But I am just trying to be less emotional and more practical and that is what exactly is helping me to sort this journey out in a moral ( allow me to use this word) sort of way. And if this is what my mom calls being professional, I guess I am okay with it.

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