learning and growing

Summer heat and moving out of state is always a bad combination. Even the AC compartments feel like boiling pans. So was my unplanned sudden short trip to Madhya Pradesh. I normally sleep little, the AC compartment although comfortable made it impossible for me to get some shut eye ,at all. I wonder how do some people manage to stay inside an AC room for a long period at a stretch. Or maybe I am just too grounded. Not just that, the train to MP was delayed by some six hours and on our way back to West Bengal, I fell considerably ill. Sleep rescued me ultimately back at home, you see. I wish I could sleep more. I also wonder if that day is going to come anytime sooner. Now that I am back in my hometown after a long time, it feels a little relaxing. Things aren't the way they used to be earlier as i must have mentioned in my other posts, but it is still home and more home for a regular hostelite. Those same evenings in my roof, the same familiar Durgapur breeze and those forever old ...

Last to last Monday our professor tried to explain in context of some poem of how we connect ourselves to characters mainly protagonists of a novel or a film or a play. And from what I gathered from her opinions, it was more like connecting more towards female characters if one is a woman, and likewise male characters if one is a man. I remember her giving the class the example of 'Pride and Prejudice.' She said that ' did not we all feel like Elizabeth Bennet while reading the book.' Some nodded in favour of an yes from what I remember. But mine was a clear no. I connected more with Mr. Darcy right from the beginning and that took me back to the end of my second year days when I had just started writing my blog and I clearly remember dedicating one blog post to the character 'Mr. Darcy' of ' Pride and Prejudice' and discussing on how I so identified with the character. So many years have passed and I still feel the same way. Seriously, sometimes when I ...

Every time I see someone's bald head shining in the sun, or a little ball like cute nose with its head shining I am reminded of you Babu. Sometimes when I suddenly see my reflection somewhere I think your spirit is with me. But it is just my sagged cheeks and a pasted forehead, that I got from you. True that you have made my breathing in and out a little difficult, but then all your life you raised me like a fighter too, and so it is okay with me, even when it is not. I remember you telling me once that " always remember your favourite fictional characters will be there with you, when you need them." Thank god, they always are. But I am waiting for the big miracle to happen and I have faith that someday it will. Miss you.

I cannot think about Dean Winchester without thinking about Jensen Ackles. So, here it goes. Since I am literally studying the character Dean Winchester, I think something just struck me hard, really hard about him. Dean's sexual orientation. And guess what or who made it worse? Ackles himself, by banning questions related to Dean's sexual orientation. I am new when it comes to " Supernatural" , but I can gurantee I know a lot more than many fans already. So here is my question. Why is that Ackles find the " gay" topic so uncomfortable. And banning questions? Why would you do that? It broke my heart a little to see that Ackles isn't really an LGBTQ supporter, but tries to pose one, lightly on social media. You can't stop the audience to interpret relations on screen the way they want to. And the fandom that the show has is as much attributed to the homoerotic subtext as to the hunting game. Ackles shoud be more sporting towards it, after all Dean Win...

1) Why do all starving Americans go after Burgers and all starving Koreans go after noodles? Why does starving Indians continue to starve? 2) To have someone of the stature of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle write about " Lot 249" is utterly, utterly unbelievable. I am still recovering. 3) Why do some people publicly claim to have more than 2000 pageviews of their blog when it is not even 200, and that too declare something like that on Facebook? Why? It is a sin.You simply waste the time of people like me who tend to think you actually write sense. 4) When a person tells you to trust them because they don't do liquor. I will say, don't use the word trust. Damn it man. I might not be Sherlock Holmes but from the shade of your lips and from your eyes I can tell, what you are upto. It is no sin. Just so you know it. And then you get to hear the kiddish crap " I thought you will think I am not a good company for you". Dude, get a life. What are you? And where are you? ...

Books and Books and Books. I told myself " give me a break" and after a few hours I returned back to my books again. Gosh- What has life come to? I mean it Kamalika, get some rest. P.S- I just got hold of some of my old writings. And I am really shocked. I was more human when I was younger. Sigh.