Hope this shall pass

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Times when you restrain from what your mind wants to do-i say it is not easy but then too much fantasizing about the unreal and 'can never happen' things,leads to suffering.You know what you want but can never get and this includes both the animate and the inanimate.Take time to sort out,that can help because getting smarter is more than just a movie and i say learning is not easy,growing up is more difficult and now i know why they call it a challenge.I do not want to be too specific regarding things that have started bothering me but the studying of my subject often acts as a remedy.Human psyche is just more than complexities and trust me on this.Yes there are many more things that are as troublesome and more complicated than complex things themselves.Thinking has become challenging for me now a days for it labours me towards exhaustion,not just the physical or mental but an undefined confinement of my inertia.Can i be at all sure about what i am aiming at?Will the material gains at all help?I don't say i don't need them but i need something more and that is inexplicable for me right now,inexplicable to an extent where my defining or an effort to give shape to my thoughts even if yields something rests no where.I say,this is just a crisis too serious too be solved so easily.Hope this shall pass to.

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