learning and growing

 Day before yesterday, while praying to God, I told God, I would like to meet him and then laughed at the mere possibility of it. Yesterday morning, a man knocked on our door. This man was sent to us by our neighbor who call him ' Halim chachha' . So he came to take away a worn out induction heater,some other worn out gadgets and broken umbrellas. The moment he entered our house, he smelled so bad( a truth is a truth). As my mother was helping him with all the things, he just said that he does this work not out of need but just to keep his mind sane because both his sons work abroad and he can spend a lovely after 60 life, if he wants to. I was listening to him and I caught his reflection on one of the framed portraits that we have of God near the stairs. He was adjacent to the portrait and it reflected his image somehow. So that was definitely God telling me " Hey,there. " ( I would like to believe that).  The story does not end there. So after this was over, I got b...

There is something that I had missed out on, in my previous blog. I will dedicate this blog to that something. So, a month back, my youngest student came to me with an old pen case. By a pen case I mean the plastic pouch/box inside which pens are kept in a shop. I hope I have been able to convey the idea properly. So these plastic pouches also have a transparent plastic sheet right on the top that gives the customer a glimpse of the pen that's inside. Why am I telling you all this? Here's the fun part. So this student told me that she had kept her pet inside it. And I was very keen to find out what pet it was? So, she showed me a black carpenter ant that she had kept inside the pen pouch. It doesn't end there. She also told me that she would love to have another black ant to make sure that it can give company to the other ant that was inside. She showed me the little hole that she had made for the ant. The hole was more like a ventilator for the ant according to my student....

 I am here because I just realized I have not written in a while. I also realised that I did not write any 'goals accomplished' post last December or a new year post this January. It's the last day of January and I promised myself yesterday that I will write today and here I am. So I will just try to fit in all that I did not write and also things that I want to write today in one post. But before anything, a very happy new year to all,reading this.                   I can go on and on with the number of things that I had learned last year right from completing one professional course to managing home and giving tuitions and getting to know the work culture of my home state in a whole different light. However, if there is something that I really pride myself for, I would say it's how I learned to take care of my mental health. I learned to sum up the courage to say NO to a lot many things that were no more serving the purpose. I placed h...

I am writing my blog because I am free till 11.30am. Last time I did say that I shall let you know where I work and since then till now, I never got the opportunity. I won't take any names but I am a proud employee of the largest educational conglomerate in Eastern India. It's in my home state and is a blessing. For sometime now I have no plans to leave my home state. I will have to conduct a training session for the teachers within the next two hours and as I was preparing myself for the same, I thought of taking a breather. Writing my blog was the first thing that came to my mind.    Honestly, sometimes I feel that a holiday on a Saturday would be well appreciated. It's a weekend after all. Then I remind myself that I have not reached that stage yet. I took a short break after I returned from Rajasthan. But it was a break from my career, not my educational pursuits or life. So, to sum it up, I ended up doing a lot more in the past two and a half months. A lot of pending...

Evening rain makes me write. I don't know if it's a coincidence but now a days I get to hear a lot of stories about how people chose certain careers that made them happy and rich ( obviously, as in what did you think?). Anyway, so today's blog post is not about those people and those stories. Today's blog is about how an ex-colleague and I had a serious conversation one day without intending to have one. It happened in Rajasthan during the month of January. Both my colleague and I, decided to take an evening walk after 7 in the campus. We both were bored and just so you know both of us were of the same age and we had to make use of our excessive energy. So we got out after 7, and we walked and walked. Northern India winter is not like the winter that one experiences in eastern India. Northern India winter can make every corner of your body shiver. That's what makes it very interesting and as we started walking more, talking more, suddenly there was a cold breeze. No...

Needless to say, I am busy again. You shall get to know why, very soon. But what is more important is that I suddenly have this craving, or should I say childish craving of owning every BTS merchandise that's available in the market. Yes, you read that right. Whenever I get obsessed with any particular thing, I buy things related to that thing to have a sense of fulfillment. Also, it doesn't sound crazy to me. But this post is also a thank you note to BTS. I have listened to all the songs sung by them so far and I have so many songs to add to my list of favourite songs by them. I think I had mentioned a few of them in my previous post. BTS is definitely taking the world by storm. Most like their music because of the upbeat tone. Some claim to be ARMY without even knowing their names. But I fall in that group that claims to be ARMY because of the motivation they find in the BTS songs. Most BTS members are around my age and I can relate to their lyrics most of the times. Had I be...

Burnt out? Even I was. Not very sure about what I was doing and what I might do. One day as I was sitting alone, looking at the street in front,wondering  why things look so messed up, I realized that I was to be blamed. Suddenly I did not want to be a part of the rat race anymore. I had to sink in deep inside my mind to answer a few questions that I chose to ignore in the past years. Healing does not take place when we run away from the uncomfortable truths. It takes place when we confront them. That evening I cooked meal for my mom and me. I decided to let go off my conservative side for a few days and since then things have changed. I talk when I want to. I work when I want to. I sleep when I want to. I dance when I want to. I know there are well wishers who fake. The thing is I don't react anymore. I understand and enjoy. Is this the real joy of not giving a fuck anymore? I mean we think that people think about us. But no-one gives a damn. At the end of the day, it's you an...