learning and growing

Pretty late again. Still the same human with more superfluous, exciting, disgusting, futile, worthy,obnoxious, healthy, lasting experiences. Yes all of the above and the summation definitely makes me feel older and more of an existentialist than what I was, I believe.More spiritual too and the rising consciousness about the supreme, definitely makes me feel more humble, grateful and inquisitive to say the least. Isn't it intriguing that he is the sub microscopic arena as well  the galactic space. He is the energy that's beyond the Matrix. He is the energy that balances the Matrix. He is the energy that keeps entities, objects,universes, spaces intact. How perfect is the creator to also lie beyond all perfections and to generously bring the world to what the 'Yug' is waiting for; an end and a new beginning, an establishment of dharma, order, righteousness. That brings me to the fact that in the past few months I have been lucky enough to go and explore 'Deogarh, Jhar...

Doing this in order to get rid of nothingness. It would be great to get views, likes and subscribers on my YouTube channel.  Also, I think I will continue making these videos for myself on YouTube. Best part is that there is no storage problem as such on YouTube. Or is there? I don't know. I shall keep on editing and posting, till I get lazy and bored.  I am not there on Facebook or Instagram. I don't share on WhatsApp either. I am too shy to do that. So you see, I am posting the links of the four videos that I have uploaded only yesterday, here in my blog.  https://youtube.com/shorts/qqP7j5XBzmQ?si=GIHfolYJwRDICkag https://youtube.com/shorts/6ARJfa_C9_Q?si=qxXkxzIKs7NviO1- https://youtube.com/shorts/JQ0EzlvIXo0?si=noDXi8mSTaQF9OhR https://youtu.be/DcDV1q-LGMw?si=HQjxJnokRLCldrxM

This summer, mom and I went to Shantiniketan, Bolpur. It's two hours from my hometown. I had to plan, book, sort things out beforehand because I had other plans and work to complete. So I booked a homestay for two days. Boarded a bus and reached Bolpur at around 1:30pm. From the Bolpur bus junction we took a Toto to our homestay. It cost us Rs60. Then  we requested the Toto owner to show us the whole place for the next two days. I had eight places in my mind for this two days trip. That afternoon, mom and I, were given a welcome drink. We had lunch in the homestay, a comfortable afternoon nap in the AC  and woke up at around five in the evening and got ready for our first day trip to Konkali tola. Konkali tola is not in Bolpur. It is situated near Bolpur and is one of the 51 Shaktipeeths in India. The Toto driver came at around 5:15pm and we reached there around 6pm. The place was comfortably less populated than the other Shaktipeeths. I think it's because it's less known a...

 Lately and coincidentally, people from different backgrounds and places, have been asking me if I am okay with being alone ? Some even ask me how do I manage it because they want such a lifestyle for themselves. While few others look at me with speculative eyes and think that I fake the happiness and the indifferent attitude, towards almost everything. (other than my career, of course)  Now! Do I like being alone all the time? Does it add to my loneliness? I like being alone. I think I am able to breath from a higher place of authentic energy as long as I am alone. I am creative. So I end up channelising my energy into creating something.Mostly it's my writing via which I express myself but all writings are not meant for my blog. I paint too. I absolutely like organising things. Now does it make me lonely? Yes, it does. There are times when I feel so, so lonely and the past comes back to haunt me in a million little ways. And surprisingly there is no way out. And so I allow m...

Yet another blog post after a long time. Hope my readers are doing well. I am always so full with work that when I get any free time, I spend it talking with my mom or just sleeping. Week days are all about preparations, deadlines and carrying out responsibilities. There is never an end to work. If one is efficient, work never piles up. But it does not end either. So what is today's post about? Insecurity. Where does it come from and how to get rid of it?  Insecurities are of the more common humanly attributes. And whether we accept it or not, we are all insecure with something or someone. What does the word really mean? It means that one is not confident enough to find that place of comfort in oneself such that it leads to and creates anxiety. And when does it happen? When we compare and see the better picture in front of us and often ponder why it's not meant for us? It can be related to a thing, person or an event. Say you see someone owning something that you long desire bu...

 I have no excuse to give this time. On the other hand, it's good to be back with my first post of 2024. But I am going to write about how I spent my winter vacation the previous year.  So I had ten days in hand. My health was not fine and I decided to rest for two days and then visit Kolkata and rest there in my uncle's house. However there was a sudden change in my plan for my aunt suggested a short trip to Mayapur. Being a Krishna devotee, I very happily accepted the plan. So we boarded Krishnanagar Express from Dum dum station early morning and then we boarded a ferry from Krishnanagar to Mayapur. We reached after one in the afternoon. It took us one more hour to find our accommodation because our trip was all suddenly planned. There were six of us and it took us some time to find a reasonable budget friendly and safe place to stay. Had we booked one of the 'bhavans' within the temple premises two months back, we could have enjoyed more. Nonetheless, it all went wel...