learning and growing

Learning and growing has taken a different shape now. I can feel the change in me. I finally realize why CV's ask for experience. Experience changes you both personally and professionally. If i were to describe myself in one word that would be 'reserved'.  I don't talk with many people. Because i don't like all. I talk with some and I like them. It is just that simple. I have always been a nerd if you ask me. I like keeping things to myself and doing things myself. I love my personal space. Now a days i have become more reserved. Professionally it is of course not possible for me to always be the way i really like to be but there too i have seen a change in me. I think the more you learn about things and people, the quieter you become. The more focused you become with your plans. Once my sir told me that ' the more you shall grow up, the more you will realize that the four walls of your room has more to offer .' I do not completely agree but i do get now wh...

My father told me once, " I am with you in all your good works ." It has often bothered me since then as to what he meant. Bad and good has always been a matter of perception to me. I think i have mentioned it somewhere on my blog too. But what was it that disturbed me about this statement? I have often questioned the empty blank authority- " am i good or bad ?''. And obviously there was no reply. But then one day something happened. And i realized that there are times when some people hurt you DELIBERATELY.  This sense of deliberation comes from some place inside the brain that knows how to confirm a certain impact. So we make deliberate efforts to work hard, which is good because it gives one satisfaction. But the point of deliberately hurting someone and gaining pleasure from that, was never justifying to me. It felt wrong to me. And then i realized that i actually have the right to categorize such people as bad and their motives as worse. And that i have the...

The four days holiday finally came to an end. It was a quiet, peaceful journey. I was mostly inside my house binge watching shows and reading articles. I even tried my hand at painting after a long time. It turned out to be a disaster in my attempt to finish it within ten minutes. I realized that i lack patience for such sublime things now because i am more focused with some other important activities in my life which might prove beneficial in the long run. The weather has started to change too. It is spring but we still cover ourselves with a blanket at night. The sun sets around six 'o' clock in the evening instead of five fifteen. Sometimes i yearn for the noise of the city streets but  most of the times i appreciate the peaceful environment that  our colony gives us. The occasional sound of the train engine assure me that i shall never forget  these days- the beginning days of my career. And did i say that last year, on 23rd of March i came here for the interview. To...

When students who try to keep in touch with you not because the syllabus demands it but because you matter to them, makes you feel good. And then when you get compliments like ' ma'am there is no substitute to you ', makes you feel even better. I need to write all this down here on my blog  so that someday  when i would like to turn back the pages of my life  and ask myself about my achievements, these little compliments shall make me smile more than my materialistic gains. I won't name the student but this blog is for you and i hope you are reading it. Lately you have faced problems in your life. And you did not know what to do or how to come out from a situation like that. I would like to tell you that you are not alone here. We all face situations that can shake us a little. And I won't say that since you are a teenager, you are more likely to be in trouble because I still find  myself doing such stupid things and i am not a teenager. Trust is a very important w...