Quick note

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I just realized I have not written in some time. The last few days I couldn't rest, couldn't sleep and to top it all I started watching a television series that hardly is going to leave me any sooner, I guess. But I don't want to start fangirling here. I will tell you two things that had hit my mind like a realization in the past two days. One is what I am going to do after my post graduation? My mother told me to not think about it at all and take a break for a year. I have been thinking on this same lines. If I don't find anything desirable, I will take a break and I guess it is long due. I am in no big hurry, I suppose. I am a bit disillusioned too, with my present college and my situation. I don't want to study for certificates or merit cards any more. I guess I have done that enough and I want peace. I would rather study exactly things that I like. Two is, I have been wondering as to why I am unsocial, most of the times. I just wanted to make sure, that I am in a healthy state of mind, and hence the wondering. And I have deduced, that I am. Most of the people I look upto had told me that the lesser friends you have, the surer can you become that you are finally doing something right and moving towards your goal. That is something I can vouch for. I don't have many friends but the few that I have are solid ones. I might be friendly to many but not many can become my friends. And If I don't like someone, that someone gets to know about it. Many don't like me because they find me rude, let's just say that is good in a way because in that way atleast there is a mutually developed system of genuine emotions. And what more, even the best of my fictional characters, either are alone or have two friends ( I have more than two) , but the point is my interesting ( going to be more interesting soon) life is in my hands and those few humans are the ones who run me emotionally. I will thank myself for it sometime later, I am sure.

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