learning and growing

The light of the candle is still,a small entity by itself.Darkness prevails everywhere except for the place,where the lighted candle is. Candle-I will die and fade.You will be left alone again.What will you do then? Darkness-Will wait for the next candle. Candle-You are confined,yet immortal,and you get candles,many candles to talk with. Darkness-Candles like you just remind me of my cursed eternity but also helps me do away with my lonliness for sometime. Candle-But i envy you.You have a forever life and we melt and vanish so quickly. Darkness-A forever life,where even if I smile none can see me.Its always so dark.Nobody wants.They need you in my presence and that in a way,brings me joy. Candle-Do you mean we candles complete you? Darkness-Light completes me.It kills me. Candle-I don't understand.How is that even possible? Darkness-How do you feel when you are replaced by another candle? Candle-I know i am subjected to such a kind of life which i fear but cannot deny. Darkness-Yo...

Today is Maha soshti,and my till now work list was quite heavy. 1)I woke up at eight and i painted a portion of our house.I was pretty excited and thought it to be a child's game untill i realized how wrong i was.My mother went on scolding me because under the terrific heat i laboured it all and she was afraid of a very silly reason-me getting tanned.Anyway. 2)It was time for my breakfast and i saw a dog,hungrier than i was.How do i know that?Well the dog seemed almost like a skeleton to me.My breakfast went inside the dog's tummy and i somehow did not feel hungry anymore.Strange yet true. 3)I had to go to a near by place to get my blouse,just a five minute walking distance from my house but then it took me one hour to get that blouse and return because of the number of people i encountered and the work here was,i had to talk more than i was expected to.Sometimes i just wish i was blessed with the ability to say NO to people,but i fear if that in turn leads to hurting someone. ...

Masquerade of a submissive saturation, Scaffolds the criminal inside the sculpted shell- Tariff paid even by the zonked secret warehouse; Unlocks the unguarded closer to heaven- Sozzled eyes,Spacious truths The almost unaltered prehistoric moulds, Grips and grabs something deep inside the bisected binded bottom. The stranger place,the conceited trial, Always leaves me forlorn. A voice deep inside- I want to escape,Can i?

Some people will understand what i am trying to do here and for the other readers,let me just inform them that this post is a kind of amalgamation of two things I am lately obsessed with(Look Back In Anger,the revolutionary drama by John Osborne and Love the way you lie,the song by Rihanna),where i will just show of how the song echoes the play and vice-versa.The inspiration comes from people who makes me think and so here it goes Alison-Everything about him seemed to burn,his face,the edges of his hair glistened and seemed to spring off his head,and his eyes were so blue and full of the sun.He looked so young and frail,inspite of the tired line of his mouth. Jimmy-Do you remember the first night i saw you at that grisly party?You didn't really notice me,but i was watching you all the evening.You seemed to have a wonderful relaxation of spirit. . ... Alison-I don't think i want anything more to do with love.Any more.I can't take it on...I'm pregnant...

Guess there will never be an end to things that upset me.I have shifted to my aunt's house and in this colony,there is a person who has reached the last stage of Cancer,and people are spreading rumours about he being a HIV-AIDS victim and people are even refusing to get close to his house,because they think that might be affected by it and even they can get the disease.There is a saying in Bengali,'Olpo Vidhya Bhoyonkari'(Little knowledge is dangerous).I am just amazed to see the heights of illiteracy of people here.Now there are two things that bother me.First is,he is not an AIDS patient.Second is,even if he is one,you won't get the disease unless you get in direct touch with his saliva or blood.AIDS is basically defined as a sexually transmitted disease,and so his family,which includes his wife and daughter,have high chances of getting affected but then he is just a Cancer patient for my uncle for knowing this person closely,had to visit the doctor for his sake and t...

Hedonism defines pleasure as the most important intrinsic good,but pleasure is non existing in reality unless we are blessed enough to receive joy or we consume some strong drug,that can help us reach that Euphoric level.So,when the term 'Colitas' is used in the first stanza of the song Hotel California by the band Eagles,it refers to the buds of Cannabis.Some say that legend has its Satanism at the song's centre.The possible interpretation can be that of the denial to reach the complete state of bliss without the absence of pain,that in turn gives shape and definition to the world of Satan.So,when the phrase 'shimmering light' is used,we do not know if that is God twinkling for a second just to vanish,thereby symbolizing how far it is to reach him or the world of perfection-or is it Satan who loses his status of that of a bright angel to a dark figure.A journey from innocense to experience in other words,the pain of knowing reality as if the singer is questioning h...

Why do we do,what we should not?Confused?Even i am.Till date i have seen others and myself run away from their genuine feelings,in a way trying to escape reality.The modern phrase 'move on',is nothing but a roundabout way of saying-run and escape the reality.But does that really help?I run away today and i find that i have landed myself up in the same land.I will just narrate a small incident.It was in my school days and i don't exactly remember which class but then it happened that a teacher,(i won't name who?),had some problems and i knew well that she would require my help and i did not want to help her,so i just ran away from the place, to demand help from her,myself the next day.It could have been,like i run away and the next day she needs me again but instead of that,it was me who needed it and i was shameful for my action of the previous day of which she had no clue,because she did not see me in the first place but all i could do was reprimand my conscience insi...