learning and growing

That phase in my life where I was not settled and was ready to unsettle and resettle all the time, I never realised it was me trying to escape from the reality. I always wanted to escape from what made me uncomfortable. Trust me, I did that for a long time till I could not do it anymore and ultimately when I faced it all, together, it was not easy. I was severely upset and was in my survival mode. Then something in me told me that the way I was feeling won't pass away till I dealt with it, faced it and came up with my own set of solutions. I did not have the mental courage but I started making small changes and taking small steps.  At every point I just realized how badly hurt I was since 2017 and how much of it I faced pretending I was okay. The first small change that I made in my routine was to take care of myself. How did I do that? I started taking care of my hair and skin. To many of you it might sound awkward because many of you probably do it three times a day if not more (...

Lately my  mother had been complaining about her tooth. It does not pain her unless touched but the gum area in and around her tooth had swollen. Two weeks back I took her to a dentist and she had her scaling done and for sometime the problem subsided. However it resurfaced again. The gum is swollen again and the dentist wants to remove the tooth now which is all very natural for I saw how brown and rotten her tooth looked on the inside. With her growing age she continuously seems to complain about something or the other. I find it irritating sometimes considering the busy schedule I have. Then I tell myself that if the responsibility has come on me then I have to commit to it. It is a little difficult with baba not being there but you gotta do, what you gotta do. So, despite the busy schedule and physical and mental exhaustion I try to do the household chores as much as I can. Today I woke up early to finish my school work so that I could take my mother for the booster doze of the...