learning and growing

Nothing can be better than being at home and feeling at home.I just have all i require-the atmosphere to read and write,my coffee mug,a heart with zero expectations(i assure),some really good books,my parents,my childhood buddy.Last few days in Durgapur has been pretty good.I remember last to last day,i went on a scooty ride with my father and did some green shopping as well.The ride was in and across the villages in Durgapur and it was so amazing.The mud huts and the hay,children playing with hens,and,cows.My readers are probably smiling at my mention of the last word but i must confess that i love the eyes of cows-black dreamy eyes.I have noticed a difference between the eyes of cows here and Gujarat.In Gujarat the cows have better eyes.Well let us not go into too much detail.Seeing the children playing in front of their huts made me sentimental-they definitely need education but somewhere i felt being an apologist to the idea that they should not be burdened with city lifestyle.I f...

How hard it is to be sincere!You are not only sincere towards your work but to your entire environment and as a result you end up being too cautious all the time,trying to reach near perfection and even if you do,you are not happy.I know how it is and i end up laughing at myself and sometimes envying people who are free from such strings of sincerity.Some people are of the opinion-'you will thank yourself for this later',well to them i will just say that i don't need to thank myself for this because it is more a burden than a pleasure and i can't stop myself from getting burdened because i feel lonely;so i both hate and love being sincere.I hate and love it when i wake up thirty minutes prior to my alarm,when i try to both socialize as per my needs and then not socialize and shut myself up in my space to do what i think i should do and i make it a point to do and maintain both the things,because i am sincere to both,i love and hate myself for being too sincere to not fo...

Your 22nd birthday reminds me of my one year of active blogging.Lets take a walk down the memory lane for a while-It was on 31st of October,2002, that i first saw you in class 2(A),and since then,till now,a lot many things and changes have taken place,and of how far i have seen and known people,i can claim,that besides,my parents and grandfather,it is you whom i consider my friend and i still don't regret the worst years of our lives,because it has definitely contributed to what we are and to who we are in our lives today, and now that we know more and have learned from our experiences,i am sure someday our desires will materialize the way we want them to,because success is nothing if not shared with family,and you have managed to become one in these last four years,standing by me all the time,helping and guiding me in the right direction,and i will forever be indebted for the good that you have done to my mind.I am thankful to God for such a good companion,who was born on 17th A...

So what i have realized is being sincere is difficult-because people expect you to be sincere,you yourself expect yourself to be sincere,work expect you to be sincere,circumstances expect you to be sincere and being sincere all the time is just so boring for there are always rules to remind you of what you should do and of what you should not do and life is defined,not just by the do's and dont's.The past three weeks was all about sincerity and i did not read any essay,article,novel outside my syllabus and that has what contributed to my growing frustration.However i have started enjoying life again,not that i am not frustrated and somewhere it becomes a necessity for me.Why?!Some other post may be.I have recently met a few people who have been deeply affected by Kanhaiya Kumar and his thoughts and like most others who claim without knowing much,that Kanhaiya Kumar should be the present prime minister,these few people claimed so, knowing much on the topic and they asked me abou...